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that's me.

i haven't blogged in soo long! i haven't journaled either. there was a good reason...i used to write too much. but now i write too little. i keep it all in my head and then there's no room for everything else. that's why i can write for hours one day (yesterday) and still want to write the next day (today). i have so many thoughts in my head. some i want to share, some i don't know if i should be thinking so i don't know if i should share them. but maybe if i share them, then i will stop thinking them...?

gah. so confused. that's my constant state of mind though...kind of funny that i am constantly confused. you would think that the more used to being confused i am, the less confused i would feel. that's confusing. haha. bottom line, no matter how confused i am, i never get used to it. well.....no, i get used to it, i just still feel confused. i don't know if that makes any sense. oh well if it doesn't.

i have some very distressing thoughts in my head.

i love being alone. i love doing my favorite things alone.